Just Deep Toughts....

Life is a journey that we make..but especially others which is the worst part..and you cant control that..


moments in life are precious
moments in life are memory
memory keeps you hoping to something or nothing
they will remnid you the best days and the worse too..
when the world seems to abandon you and the sky falls on you

You will feel lonely and feel that nobody cares and love you
when rain starts just in the right moment to cover your spreading tears...pain...


and you still feel the emptienes of the entity
that left you long time ego promising you and remeber ..... that ones done a promise that will never leave you and you be happy of what your hearing... that sound... but then it was just all a lie.. words with no feeling just came out from an empty hole that has no life...at the memory of that.. just the tought of it ..you feel you heart just ripped like somebody just put there hand inside of you and ripped it from your chest and starts bleeding out like a waterfall but that pain you dont feel it coz the worst pain is another..

and it feels like it was yesterday...with just those word saying them randomly never relased that for a person was special and how meanfull they where..like a drug given to a kid and unresponsabli thinking that nothing will happen and it just an innocent sweet ..will swallow it with no second tought...not realizing how much harm will do.. and what a big stain will cause..

You try to fight it back like someone trapped in a cob web of a spider..but then will relase there is no hope.. and accept the reality and just observe your end..

while your asking yourself if there is somehow another way?
or just giveup?...and only one special thing can save you...

waking up sweating and sad because of the missing entity...altough long time passed but again.. it is like just happend yesterday and never understand why your memory keeps on reminding you of the sad moment that which will make it feel more worse.. and waking up
not finding it and make you feel like to die...and you tought that you will forget one day...no hope..

but the day before your death will arrive ... and will make you realse the mistake you done and make you feel gulity.. gulity of never appricated nothing..and what one had...and caused pain to someone that never deserved it.. and wish then to go back to your mistakes to arrange everthing ..but then it will be to late and will make you drown in your own guilt....which will make your death more faster and painful..

and in the meantime i still wait.. wait.. and wait.. till this all ends ...pretending time will heal everthing... but realizing in someway for me is not working... and asking whats wrong... pls TELL ME?.. tell me whats wrong?.. why?... why is that pls? i wanna know... and screaming and shouting and nobody answears like i ask and try to shout but no voice from my mouth is coming out ..just lost in a never ending labryinth is that my faith? ...


and asking and realize it will just be my faith.. and hoping again someone will save me from this jail of memory.. and just come out from it...just when a new entity arrives and everthing will be fine again...and memories will just flow away..like maybe nothing has never happend..

saruxka..